Covid, Random Thoughts, Body Image and Mental Wellbeing.

First of all, hope you are well and that things are on the up, vacciniations, relaxing of restrictions and if you are coping with the changes or just looking forward to things seemingly, really getting back to normal in some places.

I have mixed emotions at the moment regarding the way rules are soon allowing people to mix a lot more freely. I was shocked the other day aa cases are really coming down in number in comparision to how we were in the beginning, looking at huge nunbers back then.

We will continue to take precautions for the foreseeable. Our boys are looking forward to seeing their friends outside of school soon so that is something we have to consider.

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Following on from the above I was having random, positive thoughts this morning.

I have struggled in my aim to lose weight during lockdown due to not being able to attend my usual organised support group. Since lockdown, and before really, I have lived in my work clothes which I wear for jobs around the house, working in the garden and sometimes going shopping especially to places like the farmers' co-op for animal feed. The only other clothes I've generally worn have been my jimmers when I relax in the evening. Both of these manage to cover my body quite well so I don't have to think about how unhappy I was with my body.

But today for some reason I woke up and suddenly thought to myself that I can look/ feel nice even though I'm not totally happy with my body shape whilst feeling positive about myself, too.

Therefore, today, after I bathed and washed my hair I dressed like I haven't for some time around the house, even though I still have jobs to do. This has really given me a boost and I've ticked so many things off my to-do-list already.

This week is mental health awareness week and today I'm feeling really good. Just goes to show that small things can made a huge difference to day to day llife.

I hope you can find just a small thing this week to help improve your mental wellbeing.xx 

Who Am I?

I watched a film recently and at the end the main character was asked - "who are you?". 

For some reason this made me think about who I am; I've changed as life for me has changed so I found myself writing this. There is probably more I could write but this will do for now.

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I am 52 but sometimes I feel like a lot younger.

I'm a wife, mum, sister and aunt but now and then I feel like a little girl.

I like to talk, to people when I go shopping, to Jehova's Witnesses at the door now and then, even though I'm not religious, but I'm more than happy to spend my day without talking to anyone at all.

I like to be organised and a day doesn't pass without me writing a to do list, but I can procrastinate and waste some serious time on doing nothing much. I'm able to get my head together and have half a day's worth of jobs done in a couple of hours if I have to catch up.

I make commitments to goals or challenges but I can find any number of excuses not to work on them.

I look at women whom I admire or am a little envious of and then think "I'd rather eat cake!".

I don't have many friends, don't feel sorry for me - even though I can talk; Jon is the only friend I need in a crisis or at any other time, but I'm loyal to the friends I do have whether I've known them for 5 or 25 years.

I'm not a supremely confident person but I can complain about anything, better than most.

I love to spend time in the garden growing vegetables but doubt myself a lot if things are not going the way they should.

I like to cook, love to bake, but I'm happy to accept my husband is a better cook than me - trained chef!

I didn't suffer from any form of anxiety until about three years ago; I'm a lot better now but still have the odd wobble. Now I have more empathy with those who struggle with their mental health.

I'm more strict with our boys than Jon at times. I expect them to do their bit around our little homestead, as does Jon, but they are wonderful boys and I'm so proud of all they do and are capable of; I know they will do fantastic things as they get older.

Our family, the four of us, is THE most important thing to me, and Jon. I would give up everyone and everything in order to protect, save or make decisions for their benefit.

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